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+ I love YAOI
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+ I love to sing
+ I love to rock out and scream
+ I love to draw
+ I love Hetalia
+ I love my uke

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Early Midlife Crisis & the End of the World

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 14, 2009, 9:10 AM
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Elegy - Ken Hirai
  • Reading: The Rape of Europa
  • Watching: Apocalypse: The Second World War
  • Playing: Tekken6
  • Eating: pasta~
  • Drinking: coke
I've been thinkin a lot lately. And I hate it when I think deep deep thoughts, it almost drowns me. Please excuse me if I dump all of it here in one go cuz I don't think I could keep it all in, and my brain would just eventually explode.

x__X So, I'm on my last semester of 3rd in college right? Next year I'll be working on my thesis and I'll be graduating. So far... I haven't planned much about the future after college. As far as I see it, I'll still be struggling with my parents' over-protectiveness. I won't have a control over my own life.

I don't think they trust me enough to be independent even if I'm already working. 3 years wouldn't be enough for them to realize that it's finally time for me to go on my own... Still, if I'm working I hope I'll be able to gather up some money for myself in time.

Damn... just thinking about this made me realize how utterly ignorant am at how things work in the real world... cuz my parents always prevent me from knowing what's out there. They're too over protective. They won't even let me have my own bank account. I don't know how people pay their bills, or pay for their cars, or invest their money in houses and real estate and do transactions and things like that... I don't know how the world works and ticks.

This made me feel a little stupid and vulnerable. I'll be sent out there, defenseless and ignorant. Some of my friends already have this opinion. I feel like I'll be useless to society.

Most of my friends are younger than me, and they know a hell of a lot more about life than I do. I kind of envy them...

*sigh* so now, I don't really know what to do. I guess I'll will myself to learn things on my own even if I have to do them behind my parents' back.

I have no choice.

hmm... that is to say if I still HAVE a future. What with the Global warming, polution, polar ice-caps melting resulting into floods, food would be scares in the next 20 to 30 or so years, famine, bad whether, eathquakes... blah blah blah...

What have I got more to live?

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On the other side of news~

I'm still looking for people who are willing to buy my art either through PayPal or Mail.

Hetalia Posters: each one costs about $2.50







*more fanart to come

so that means, I'll still have to wait till I've finished all the posters before I compile them into a fanbook which would most likely cost for about $51.00

Other Art: each one costs about $1.50






Please NOTE me if you'd like to order or something... or just comment on this journal. :aww:

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Felepenas
  • Interests: yaoi, slash, video games, art, music, macbare and weird things...my uke .. <3
  • Favourite movie: FFVII:Advent Children, LOTR, 300, Starwars Episode III, Pirates of the Carribean
  • Favourite band or musician: MCR, Versailles, D'espairsRay, The GazettE, Gackt, Bullet for my Vallentine
  • Favourite genre of music: J-Rock, Visual Kei, Punk, Metal, Hard Core, Screamo, Classical, choir
  • Favourite artist: a lot!...XD (too many to mention)
  • Favourite poet or writer: Jose Rizal, Shakespear, Alexandre Dumas, Homer, Anne Rice, Oscar Wilde, Neil Gaiman
  • Favourite photographer: anyone could make pretty pictures. ^_^
  • Favourite style of art: Realisim. ( sadly I could never pull off that kind of art. >_> )
  • Operating System: My brain I guess...
  • MP3 player of choice: i-Pod nano! MP4 player...
  • Wallpaper of choice: whatever I like putting there.
  • Skin of choice: My own skin...
  • Favourite game: FFVII, Dirge of Cerberus, Crisis Core, KH2, Devil May Cry, Legend of Zelda
  • Favourite gaming platform: o_O the floor? PS2, PSP, visual gameboy advance
  • Favourite cartoon character: Cloud Strife, Zack Fair, Sephiroth, Dante, Yagami Light, Hidaka Ken, Jojo, Jack Skellinton
  • Tools of the Trade: My imagination!

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from LS ;P
Steamy gallery :onfire: Hahah,keep it up mate :thumbsup:
:iconchicharon:
AH~! recently ko lang nalaman from tepai~!!!! taga holy rin pala kayo~! ahahahahaha~! really cool~! teka... natanggap nyo po ba note ko??? ^^;;; lol! anyways... naaliw lang akong taga-holy ka ^ w ^

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kickass clubs! click away, folks! :boogie:
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:icondelicateporcelain:
Hi Kai! Thank you so much for the watch! Got my note? :aww:

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:damphyr: Hating me won't make you pretty!
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:iconkynkyn:
Thank you for the watch ^^

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Endless Roads.
:iconutentsu:
thanks for the add dearie :D

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:ekud: so they said im a bitch, not in those words but you get the idea. I just naturally sound mean
:icontenwood:
[link] US x Canada love. ^___^

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メロ × ニア
MelloxNear = ♥♥♥

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USxUK|KazukixKeita|YukixZero|UsagixMisaki|RyuichixShuichi

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America x England is not incest, try putting Canada and America together now THAT'S twincest.
:iconkotchiry:
Thanks for the :+fav: and the watch :D

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Thanks for the favs C:

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:iconryouka86:
China-saaaaan <33333
Good Day!

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Wow, I love your awesome works :heart:
Watch you :love:

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OPPA. YOUSONOFFA--
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Oh man your gallery is 1000 times better than mine :iconcryforeverplz:
:iconkaiplue:
DDD8 aiya! dun't say that aru! *clings* :huggle:

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I love you more than anything in this world...
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astig!!!!!! yaoi!!1 xDDD

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